'rolling in the deep

today has been such a crazy day, and this time im not even using it in the sense that im exaggerrating. maybe i am .-. but it was a rollercoaster, and today i understood what it felt like for some other people when this happened to them. different reasons, im sure, but all the same. its different, and the way you feel after it, having the people around you all day not know about it, it makes you wonder if you should just tell them or let it be and not mention it at all.
i lost the plot. and i feel like now its just holding together. just.
.. i just need you around. just a bit. but i understand if you're not, cos im not selfish and i believe in forcing people to do stuff like this..
i know that life is hard for everyone else, and im not complaining that my life is hard.. im just saying i brought this upon myself and theres no one to blame except me, and i am the one who has to sort everything out, and work out what it is that i need to fix. but i am lucky to have such kind, caring people who just help around me, and i just can't thank you guys enough :)

i wish i could blog at school, it would've helped me today. pictures and words.
i think its too late now..

we did kpop in music today, good good change from indian pop.. seriously.. and i dont even really like kpop..
stayed behind after school with karen and we 'decorated', talked and did drama. theres one less thing to worry about now. which is really good. got english to do!

thank you mich mo and jess h and all the other people who pop into my life randomly and do kind things, esp with today morn, thank you (: