let it out.

i feel so unfocused. and tired. i can't focus on one thing and finish it. i kept getting jittery when i was playing piano, and then after i stopped playing i started drifting off and i wouldn't realise. it's so weird. i felt useless yesterday, cause i haven't done anything this year that i wanted to do. i keep procrastinating, which means that everything just gets dumped in a pile together, and i rush through everything. i run out of time to do the things i want to do. just a weird thought - is there such thing as bullying yourself? because all this feeling jittery and useless coincides with what iverach said today about bullying. only this is a bit weird, cause it's self inflicted? :S

 im so freaking tired. first monday night, i went to bed at like 1:30am cause i was doing history and maths or something because i had a french test, assignment, speech all due on the same day. last night it was 3 hrs of maths, 1 hr of sci bookwork and then another hr on the sci presentation which i didn't finish. the frustrating thing is that i didn't study for the sets test (until recess) and i didn't finish my sci presentation, which both were done today. the other 4 hrs were kinda wasted. i did all that work just for the bookmark, and it wasn't marked. ):< today at least. meaning i have another day. tonight it's memorize and practice beam, and do my science presentation. (just while we're at that, three people did titanium today. amazing. LOL)

alice was suggesting that i quit something so i'd have more time to do stuff. (ie: quit dance) i was like, no. i'm not even gonna consider that. nor with some of the music i do. or swimming. they are my outlets. (: if i didn't have all of them, well, i'm just gonna say my life would change so much that i would prolly go mad. :L i will survive this year. the only thing i'm considering is leaving jr, which is really unlikely. cause once i leave, i can't come back. so yeah... although if all this midnight stuff keeps going on, its gonna take a big toll on my health. and it's not just mr low saying that. my parents are saying that too.

so cold today. i'm so glad i brought my jumper. choir was so weird, everyone was relying on me for alto (all the yr 8's at least) but i've got a cold, which affects my throat and nose, which affects my singing. i sound retarded. (my eng speech was affected too. i think i sounded nasal.) it was so warm the past 2 days though. dodgeball game tomorrow! KRAKS FTW!! =D i'm not sure who we're versing, but it's either a yr 10, 11 or 12 team. so sad. :'( there's only 5 girls teams altogether. that's just sad.

i had an urge to get on the comp to type everything up from the past 3 days. i just needed to clear out my mind so i could think properly again. (: yes, i do need a new skin with comments on it, it's coming. may add more later.

9:04pm same day
just found a new skin and put it on. so tedious adding comments in and extra boxes. kept stuffing up, so i wasted heaps of time on that. :P if i could, i'd do 10 blogs instead of all my hw. too bad that's not really a choice. ): hope you guys like it. (if you don't, well, i'm not gonna care. ^^)

10:15pm later on
arghh! i can't get the comments to work properly! :( but it's alright. the only thing i'm missing is the delete button. >< sorry everyone.